It is STILL the time of the month, and because of that the younger kids got a mega punishment from me today for being so irresponsible. And I feel they deserve it.
It has been a LOOONNGGG day for me. I was at a meeting which lasted from 9:30a.m until 5:30p.m, with only our lunch break as a breather. Going to the meeting meant that I had to cancel all my classes scheduled for today, which in turn means that I have to reschedule them to another day, which means I would have to double up my classes one of these days. And, it doesn't help when New Year also fell on Thursday last week. I also have to reschedule ALL the classes I missed last week, too! And it is not easy to find a time which ALL the students would be free to attend all the replacement classes.
The outcome of today's meeting also means that my colleagues and I would have to sit down (AGAIN!) to work on some corrections and amendments to some documents which we had been working on for the last one year! And it doesn't help, too, that I've also been given an urgent dateline to meet by the end of May this year for a MAJOR MAJOR piece of work even when my initial proposal was to finish the work by the end of July this year.
I really had A LOT on my mind today...
Anyway, I had to go back to my office to get my stuff and tie up a few things after the meeting. I left the office just after 6p.m., already feeling like a kain buruk, and reached Mak's house at 6:25p.m. Hasya and Hilman are having their mengaji session here tonight, and so, we're having dinner here.
The first thing that I did when I saw Hilman was to ask him if he managed to get his seluar sukan from the school shop today. I had given him RM20 to buy the seluar and RM2 for his duit belanja today. And he told me that the shop didn't have any stock for the seluar sukan. Not wanting him to lose the money I gave him, I asked for the RM20 back for safe-keeping, because just the other day, Hasya LOST the RM20 I gave her to get HER seluar sukan. Apparently, she said she brought the money back and left it on our bed in PJ, and forgot all about it when we went back to SD that night. And the next day, the money was gone. According to her lah.
I was still okay with it, and told myself that she might have misplaced the RM20, and that she must have put it somewhere else but had forgotten where exactly she had kept it. One of these days, the money might just re-appear (?!). Anyway, giving her the benefit of the doubt, I gave her another RM20 today for her to get her seluar sukan.
So, not wanting Hilman to lose HIS RM20, too, I asked him to give it back to me. He took a piece of RM10 note out of his pocket, and gave it to me. And I asked him, "Where's the other RM10, Hilman?". And the reply was, "I dunno...I thought you only gave me RM10".
My kepala dah start panas dah...
"What do you mean? I gave you RM22 just before I went to work this morning. RM20 for your seluar, and RM2 for belanja. Where's the other RM10?!"
Telinga I dah merah dah ni...
And he came up with, "Uh...I dunno, Mommy. I put all the money you gave me on the dressing table this morning, and took everything when I went to school this afternoon".
Pantang tok nenek I when I asked the kids anything, and they come up with all sorts of "I dunno's"!
Dada dah makin berdegup kencang dah masa ni, and I could feel my blood rushing up to my face...
"Where....is...the...RM10?" - teeth already grinding...
Realizing that I was VERY upset with him, Hilman kept quiet and just looked at me, and I stared back at him before I turned to Hasya, and asked,
"Hasya did YOU manage to get your seluar sukan with the RM20 which I gave you to ganti duit semalam?", and she said, "No, they didn't have any stock this morning, too."
"Okay, then, where's the RM20?"
And she took all the notes from her school bag, and gave me all RM20 - all crumpled.
(Asap dah keluar kot hidung I dah masa tu...)
And I looked at Hilman, and repeated my question, "Where's the other RM10, Hilman?"
And he kept quiet.
"I don't care, I want both of you to find the money you lost! Hilman you'd better find the RM10 now. Hasya, you'd better find the RM20 you lost the other day. NOW! I don't care! NOW!!!"
So, because Hilman lost the RM10 today, Hasya who got away with losing the RM20 hari tu, ALSO has to face my wraths this evening.
And both of them got a mighty flick on their ears.
And I started berleter - "That's the problem with you guys. You never appreciate money. You do not value duit sebab senang nak dapat. Anything you want, you can get. You don't know how to take care of your own money!! You never take responsibility for your money!!! (and yadda, yadda, yadda...bla bla bla...)
"Don't you DARE ask Mommy for anymore money for your seluar sukan. I don't care - both of you just have to wear your old seluar sukan. I don't care if dah senteng ke, or dah koyak, etc. YOU WEAR THEM! UNDERSTAND?! And no TV or Naruto or PSP or PS2 or DVD the WHOLE of this weekend. Until Sunday. Paham??! In fact, your punishment starts tonight! And you guys are NOT getting any new story books for the next 2 weeks! PAHAM???!!! And tomorrow, you two are NOT getting any duit belanja from me! You have your lunch at home, and bring your bekal air to school. PAHAAMMM??!! (They'll only be in school for 4 hours tomorrow anyway...)
And they both just nodded and looked at me.
And they got another mighty flick on their ears, before they continued to search for the money.
And after laying down all their punishment for not valueing the money we gave them, Hanna came into the room, and asked, "What are you looking for?" (when she saw her adik-adik terkedek-kedek searching for the money from under the bed, etc.)
And I said, "The money they lost!"
And Hanna said, "Ooohh, Aunty Adek found RM10 under the sofa this afternoon, and she gave it to Wan!"
And Hilman looked at me, and said, "That must be mine!"
Mata I dah terjegil at him.
And I said, "I DON'T CARE IF IT WAS YOURS OR NOT!!! THE POINT IS - YOU LOST IT!!! YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHERE THE MONEY WAS JUST NOW!!"
"THE PUNISHMENT STILL STANDS!!! PAHAAAMMM???!!!"
And they looked at me again and nodded their head.
And as I'm typing this, Hasya is still trying to find her RM20. And I'm only letting her rest when Ustadz comes at 8:30p.m nanti.
Both of them could not have picked a worse day than today to ruffle my feathers the wrong way...
So you see, guys...There ARE days when I fail to see the glass as half full. There ARE days when I fail to tell myself that there are others who have bigger problems and heavier burden than me. And even though such a day may come far and few in between, they sometimes do come nevertheless (especially when it's that time of the month!) And today was such a day.
Maybe this is REALLY bad parenting on my part. But, I know they'd think twice about not taking care of their money properly from now on, Insya Allah.