Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Another new year, another year less...

On this New Year's eve, in saying farewell to 2008, and hello to 2009, I have a lot to be thankful for.

Syukur alhamdulillah, 2008 has been a good year for me, Ayah, the kids and our loved ones, and we make do'a that 2009 will bring with it more love, joy, rezqi, wisdom, success, and more importantly - good health for us to enjoy all that Allah SWT has bestowed upon us, insya Allah. And we make do'a that we'll be able to give more to others, too, insya Allah.

I have made so many new friends in the last one year through this humble blog of mine, and I have also found some long-lost friends, too. And for that, I am so grateful.

So, on this eve of 2009, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all of you abundance of good things in life, love, joy, laughters, wisdom, success, health and semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezqi, insya Allah.

And as we leave 2008, I would like to leave all of you with this little conversation that I had with Hasya and Hilman today, and something for all of us to ponder upon -

Hilman : Mommy, why do cats eat mice?

Me : Hmmmm, I dunno. I've never thought about it, Hilman. Why do you ask?

Hilman : I dunno, I'm just curious.

Me : I guess, it's like, why do WE eat chicken, vegetables, and fish, etc.? Because we just do? Hmmmm, I really don't have any other explanation to that, Hilman.

Hasya : Errr, Mommy, do you think, MAYBE it's because mice taste like fish? MAYBE?

Me : ???!

(You don't know where this is going, do you? And I am not making any sense here, am I? Oh well,what the heck? Hehehe...))

Guys, what I'm trying to convey here is that - this new year, whenever you cannot find any answers to any questions, or when it feels like you're walking straight onto a solid wall, or when you're stuck with stuff, and when you feel nobody could help you explain the things that need explanation, and ALL THAT are pulling you down, be it at work, or otherwise, just spend MORE time with the kids.

They might provide you with the answers that you're looking for. Be it logical, or illogical ones.

But,hey, even if their answers are illogical, they will surely bring smiles to our lives throughout the new year, non? :)

And just think. Another new year would mean that we have one less year to spend with our kids, with our loved ones. Just think about it.

Just try to spend more time with your loved ones this New Year :)

And I'm sure, 2009 will be one of the best years in your life, insya Allah :)



Tuesday, December 30, 2008

New rooms to usher the new year...

Second Semester starts today.

And I had been on leave for the last 2 weeks. So, you all can just imagine how difficult it was for me to get out from under the duvet this morning.

But, after reaching the office at 7:40a.m., I'm feeling charged up again. I'll have about 60 students taking my courses for the next 4 months. It's not too bad - not too many, not too few. I should be able to meet my KPI of teaching at least 6-8 hours a week :)

Back at home, the girls' room is not yet fully ready. The walls have been painted though, the curtains are already up, and the air-cond unit installed. I think they just could not wait for it to be completed, and they've started sleeping up there for the last 3 nights - never mind all the boxes and stuff lying all over the room.

Their study tables and book-racks will be arriving tonight. And, Voon, our contractor will be installing the water-heater, and putting up the shelves on the walls this Saturday. Hopefully, everything will be done by this weekend, and the girls can fully enjoy their new room before school starts next week.

Hilman has also been sleeping alone in his room (used to be shared with his sisters) for the past three nights. And Ayah and I are very proud of him. We were expecting him to knock on our door in the middle of the night, but so far, so good. He has been a very brave boy, indeed :)

And today's Ayah's last day at work in PP*M. He'll be taking his annual leave from tomorrow until 14th March 2009. And he'll start his clinic session fully at TMC on his birthday - 15th March 2009. We've been busy searching for furnitures and fittings for his new clinic, too. Hopefully, his clinic will be ready by the end of February, insya Allah.

Oh ya - I've also re-arranged the furniture in my office, too, before I took my 2-weeks leave the other day. I'm a furniture-shifter, remember? ;) It has a new feeling to it now. I like :)

Hmmmmm, new room for everyone for the new year. Insya Allah, they'll bring rezqi and good things to all of us in 2009 (and beyond, of course :))


Wednesday, December 24, 2008

16 random facts about wanshana...

I've been tagged by Hanna. Has been since Sunday. And she has been pestering me to get on with it. Since Sunday.

So, here I am doing the tag. On Wednesday. Sorry, dear. Mommy have been pretty tied up with stuff.

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog/Facebook note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

Here goes -

1. I am a hoarder. I just spent the last one week clearing the top-floor room and threw away/gave away/hoard again some of the stuff which I had been hoarding in our top-floor bedroom (which has been serving as a store-room all these years). I swear everything amounted to nearly 10 tonnes (8 tonnes of which, I decided to hoard again. Just in case.)

2. I'm a furniture-shifter. Yup. That kind. The kind who arranges and re-arranges the furniture in the house (and the office) every 2 months or so (like I have all the time in the world, kan?) But, being a pro at shifting stuff, I only need 1-2 hours to get everything re-done. Sometimes, after everything had been shifted, I realized that it was back to square one. Hampehh...

3. I had my first grey hair/uban at the age of 11. Some say it was because I have such a long name and diri tak larat nak bawak the name. Strange, because all my siblings and cousins on my Abah's side have very long names, too. Some even longer than mine. Hitam berkilat ajer their hair, even until now (or maybe they started dyeing their hair since they were 10 without me knowing it? Hmmmm...?) Anyway, another explanation for the white hair - simple (and more logical) - I'm a genius.

4. I've NEVER done facials all my life. Not even once. Okay, maybe once - a week before my akad nikah way back in 1994. Itupun sebab it came with the Mak Andam package from Su*er* Ji*gg*.

5. I've been using this particular brand of facial and skin care since I was 19. And I'm now 40. Very loyal I tell you. Must ask for "LOyalty" payment (if I cannot get "ROyalty" payment) from them.

6. I only weigh myself when I have my contact lenses on, fearing that the weight of my Bu*be*ry glasses would add on the unwelcomed grammes to the reading. I know. Pathetic.

7. I cook mean Lamb Chops, Chicken Rice, Szechuan Chicken (or my kids call it "Ayam Hotel"), Briayani, Ayam Halia, Mee Rebus, Laksa Asam and Char Kuey Teow (according to my kids and Ayah lah kan? Coz' they have no choice but to eat my cooking!) That brings us to the next -

8. I only allow Dar (our helper) to prepare/cook breakfast (coz' I malas nak bangun too early in the morning!). The rest of the meals for the family, I cook myself.

9. I can only drive wearing Cl*rks slippers/springers. Only lately, I started to also drive wearing my Hu*h Pu*pi*s. Wearing other shoes makes me feel like I'm still holding the "L" licence. Don't ask me why.

10. I love listening to the songs my kids listen to when I'm driving. I have no choice really. Those songs are the only songs I have the chance to listen to in the car because the kids will be with me MOST of the times when I'm driving.

11. And when I DO have the time alone in the car, I would be listening to all the Indonesian bands - Ungu, Dewa, Letto, Nidji, Samson, etc. Malaysian singers - errrr, ada ke Malaysian singers worth listening to? If ada, please let me know, and I'll try to start listening to them, too. Thank you.

12. I think Daniel Craig is HOT (but, errr...then again, I think Ayah is hot, too! So how? ;))

13. I don't know how to swim. And I don't think I'll ever learn how to. Hydro-phobic giler...A few times when we went snorkelling on family holidays, I was holding to the boat the WHOLE time, okay? Baik tak payah ikut gi snorkelling, kan?!

14. I love going to Karaoke with my MT and their spouses. But, I don't sing. I mime. I don't feel guilty for not making a fool of myself croaking at Re* Bo*. I leave that to my MT friends... HAHAHAHA! But, seriously, my MT friends are all really good singers. That's the only thing we don't have in common :). Anyway, my lacking in the singing department is overly compensated by Ayah's excellent singing "prowesses". When he belts out all the Bee Gees numbers, aiiyyyoooooo! cannot tahaaaannnn...

15. When I'm angry, I keep VERY quiet. When I'm VERY angry, then you'll start hearing all the bangings of the drawers, cupboard doors and pintu-pintu yang sewaktu dengannya. I'm quite a quiet person. Must live up to the reputation. So, I just let all the pintus do the talking :)

16. I've been described as a very 'sopan-santun' person...(HAHAHAHA!!! And I tergelak besar whenever I hear this!) Hmmmmm....must start living up to people's expectation macam ni. Tomorrow I'm enrolling myself into Kelas Perempuan Melayu Terakhir.

So, there - 16 random facts about Wanshana.

I now tag all the lovely Makcik Bloggers who attended the Sure Heboh High-Tea at Concorde that day because hari tu tak sempat betul-betul get to know each other.

My 16 taggees are as follows -

1. MrsNordin
2. Madam Tai Tai
3. Kak Ezza
4. Zaitgha
5. MsHart
6. Superwomanwannabe
7. Ummi365
8. The Principal
9. Kay
10. Tireless Mom
11. Busybody
12. Bella
13. and of course - IBU! :)

I cannot just stop at 13 or even 16, so, I'm also tagging those who were not able to be there with us that day but were on our minds throughout the gathering -

14. Waterlily
15. Myheartbleeds
16. Jabishah
17. Ja
18. Kak Teh
19. Mak Andeh

Can aaaarrrr??! Hope you guys will oblige, please, please, pretty please?

And this is a good enough reason for Busybody and Bella to start their own blogs, non?!

Cheers! And thank you :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

What a Sunday...

How shall I describe it?

It was makan, makan dan makan lagi...AND ketawa, ketawa dan ketawa lagi!!!


The day started off with me driving to Ab*d's place in Vi*la Da*an*ara and reaching there at 9:55a.m. The janji was to reach her place at 9:45a.m, and then we would just car-pool in her car to go to The Pa*il*io*. The MT was to have brunch at The Loaf at 10:30a.m. Biasa lah kan. When it comes to MT gathering or outing, when we fix a time to meet up, we always have to plus (never minus) 1 (or sometimes 2) hours! Hehehe!. Anyway, we left at 10:05a.m, and syukur alhamdulillah the traffic was okay and we reached The Loaf at 10:40a.m. As expected (Hahaha!) we were the first ones there. By 11:25a.m, all the usual suspects were there. Standard lah tu...nearly one hour off the scheduled meet-up time :)

Makan punya makan, sembang punya sembang...we didn't realize that it was already 2:30p.m! We said our bye byes and muah-muaahs and both Ibu and I rushed to Concorde for another get-together at The Melting Pot. This time with our Makcik Bloggers friends. Dup dap...dup dap jugak lah hati (to borrow Ms Hart's description of her perasaan untuk bertemu mata buat pertama kali!) Hehehe!

We reached there just after 3:00p.m, and were greeted by the lady who has made the gathering possible - Mrs Nordin. Already there were Madam Tai Tai, Kak Ezza, Superwomanwannabe, Ms Hart, Zaitgha, Ummi365, The Principal and Busybody. We were later joined by Bella, Kay-Leeda and Tireless Mom. Memula tu memang nervous giler...

I swear memang bergegar Melting Pot semalam! And it was indeed a Melting Pot of blogger friends alright. Everybody just clicked and blended very well with each other. In a way, it was rather strange because even though we had never met before (except for a few who had gone a long way together), it felt like we had known each other for years! Strange...but it was a very, very warm and very, very nice feeling :)

I've known Ibu, MrsNordin, Tireless Mom for the last 28 years. We were at a boarding school together, and The Principal was our junior. But, the last time I saw MrsNordin was about 3 years ago, while I had not seen Tireless Mom since she left ST*, while The Principal - since I left school (and that was a looooooonnng time ago!). As for Ibu, errrrr...tak dapat dielakkan - selalu sangat jumpa whether we like it or not! (HAHAHAHA!!)

As for Superwomanwannabe, the last time we met was probably when my Hanna and her Nadine were about 3-4 years old when we went to visit her and Ja* at her Mom's place in Kemensah (?), when they first came back to Malaysia for good. That was about 10 years ago. She had 2 kids then, if I'm not mistaken. And now, after 3 more kids (for her) and 2 more kids (for me), we met again :) And I've also met Zaitgha a.k.a The Kitchen Goddess, once at a Raya gathering at Kak Ena's arwah Bapak's place last year. Tapi, masa tu I ni pemalu and segan nak mingle mongle coz' saya budak baru berblogging...Hehehe!

As for Madam Tai Tai, Kak Ezza, Ms Hart, Ummi365, Bella, Busybody, and Kay-Leeda, that was the first time we met mata bertentang mata. But semalam we were berpeluk-pelukan macam berjumpa semula lepas 30 tahun tak berjumpa dalam salah satu siri Jejak Kasih... Hahaha!


We were chatting away and ketawa bagai tak ingat dunia even after the Hi-tea buffet spread dah tutup. Even Ayah and the kids who came towards the end to fetch (or rather "drag") me home (?!) made a comment - "Fuiyooo...we could hear you guys even from outside!!" Hahaha!

And as for Madam Tai Tai, Hanna made a remark - "Mommy, she looks so posh!" And I agree with her. The birthday girl memang very the posh :)

We HAVE to do this again. SOON.

MrsNordin, Madam Tai Tai, Ummi365, Zaitgha and The Principal presented all the Makcik bloggers with gifts, and I feel so ralat coz' tak sempat to get anything for anybody. So, that is a very good enough reason to meet up again, non? And of course, another reason is to gegarkan ANOTHER place pulak. I don't think The Melting Pot would allow us in again after yesterday. Macam Concorde we all yang punya! HAHAHAHA!

To all the Makcik Bloggers - it was REALLY nice to have finally met all of you yesterday. Thank you, thank you for such a fun-filled afternoon. I dah sakit rahang now ni coz banyak sangat ketawa :)

We parted ways after beberapa rounds of peluk ciums just after 6:00p.m, with everybody already looking forward to the next Makcik Bloggers get together.

And because rasa guilty meninggalkan suami dan anak-anak satu hari, I decided to make up for it by bringing them to Hard Rock for dinner after that :)

So, all fair and square...(But, Mommy still think Mommy had the most fun, okay? :))

Dan sempena dah berjumpa dengan Ms Hart, malam ni I nak masak her famous Ayam Bali. Buleh??! ;)

For more sure heboh reviews, please see MrsNordin, MsHart, Kak Ezza, Superwomanwannabe, Ummi365, Kay and Tireless Mom postings on the get together.

Here are some pics. Enjoy!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Time to move on...

Thank you to all who had left their well-wishes for Hilman as he starts a new phase in his life. Boy to man :)

And as Hilman starts his journey as a (little) man, Ayah is also starting a new phase in his life.

Yup. After exactly 10 years 9 months of dedicating his life to PP*M, Ayah tendered in his resignation on Tuesday 16th December 2008 - something which neither of us ever thought would happen.

PP*M had been Ayah's second home. In fact, I dare say that for most of the times, it had been his FIRST home because he spent more time there than at home actually. He would leave for work around 6:45a.m (sending Hanna to school first), reaching the hospital around 7:30a.m., and he would come home (earliest) at 9:00p.m. There were times when he didn't see the younger kids for days as they would still be asleep when he left, and they would already be in bed when he came home late at night for a few days in a stretch. And he would go and see and review his patients at the wards even during weekends. I can't even remember the last time (if there ever was one) Ayah did not go to the hospital on Saturdays and Sundays.

Sometimes I would ask the kids, "How many days have you guys not seen Ayah?". And they would have to take a few seconds to count the days, before coming up with, "Errr...2 days, kot? Or maybe 3?"

But, I know that Ayah saw them EVERYDAY. Every time when he came back from work late at night, he would first go to their room and kiss them, unbeknown to them...And sometimes when I would be asleep when he came back, halfway to Dreamland, I would feel him hugging me close, and kissing my forehead before he surrendered to Slumberland himself...

And sometimes, the kids didn't even realize it when Ayah was away on conferences. They were so used to not having Ayah around at home that sometimes they didn't even feel that Ayah was thousands of miles away. To them, Ayah was probably at the hospital, working as always. And when he came back from his meetings abroad, his luggage would be filled with stuff for the kids. So much so, that the kids would always terpa and hug his luggage first before they hugged their Ayah when he came in through the door. Hehehe...

It had not been easy being married to a doctor. It's worse when his area of specialization is in cardiology. But, I know that it's even harder for Ayah to have missed out on so many things with regard to the kids due to the nature of his work.

I've lost count of how many times we had to postpone, or even worse - cancel, our family outings when Ayah was suddenly called in for emergency procedures.

I've lost count of how many times we had to wait for Ayah to fetch us from the malls, relatives' and friends' houses, etc., because he had to go to the hospital in the middle of our outings or functions.

I've lost count of how many time the kids and I had to follow him to and wait for him at the hospital during weekends when he was suddenly called while we were on our way to somewhere.

I've lost count of how many times I had waited for him to have dinner with him, only to be told that he would be very late because he had to perform a primary/emergency angioplasty just as he was about to leave the hospital for home.

I've lost count of how many times he would be called to the hospital in the middle of the night to attend to emergency cases.

I've lost count of how many times Ayah would fall asleep while having conversations with me, out of sheer exhaustion after work.

I've lost count of how many times he would come home feeling down when he couldn't save his patients' lives, even after going all out and giving his best everytime.

I've lost count of how many fights and arguments we had when I just could not take it at times - not having him there with us during the times that I wanted him to be there most, but, he could not make it, either in time, or at all...

Yes, I admit. I am not one of those very understanding doctors' wives that you often hear of. I can be rather selfish at times. I am only human.

If you think working in a government hospital is tough, let me tell you this - working in a teaching government hospital is even tougher. Ayah has his clinics to attend to. He has his ward-rounds to perform. He has his angio procedures to perform. He has to carry out research upon research. He has to write and publish academic papers. He has to present papers at meetings and conferences. He has to give lectures to his students. He has to supervise their clinical attachments, etc. And on top of that, he's also required to carry out certain admin work for the hospital AND faculty. And he does that nearly everyday - day in, day out for the last 10 years and 9 months.

But, he never complains because he loves his work.

Just as I've lost count on so many things that had happened, I've also lost count of how many times I panjatkan kesyukuran to Allah SWT for giving me such a responsible and loving husband who always tries his best to give the best to his family, his patients and to others. Syukur alhamdulillah.

The decision to leave PP*M was not done in haste, and it was NOT an easy decision to make. In fact Ayah had been thinking about it for nearly two years, but never seriously. There were so many things that pulled him to stay on - so many people to please, so many hati to jaga, so many debts in deeds to be paid.

But, there was only ONE thing pushing him to leave in the end. His kids. Their future.

It's not that he could not provide them with a good future. But, he doesn't want to settle for "good" when he has a choice to settle for "the best" for the kids. And it's not just about financing their future. It's also about investing more of his TIME with them now and the years to come. Something that he had not been able to do as much as he wanted to in the last 10 years.

I for one has never influenced him in any way whatsoever when it comes to his career. He would be the only person who knows what is best for him career-wise, and whatever decisions he made had always been his, with me giving him my full support.

Ayah only started to seriously think about leaving about a year ago. And, somehow macam tersusun elok, when one fine day I received an invitation to attend a health-talk organized by a PR firm for a soon-to-be-launched hospital. Ayah followed me to attend the talk, which did not materialize in the end when the Manager found out that Ayah was a doctor, and I obviously did not need any health-talk given by them. Hehehe... Anyway, before leaving, I managed to joke with them, and said, "If ever you need a brilliant cardiologist for your hospital, just contact my husband." :)

One thing led to another, and before we knew it, Ayah was head-hunted and approached by the said soon-to-be-launched hospital to join them. At the same time, Ayah was also approached by another hospital which is much more established to join them. But, Ayah being Ayah - one who thrives on challenges, he accepted the offer from the former, simply because it's a new hospital, and Ayah will be the first and only cardiologist there (at least for the first year or so), and he wants the cardio unit to be his 'baby'. He has great plans for the new hospital, and I know that they are very, very lucky to have Ayah as part of their pioneering team. They will never get anybody nearly half as dedicated as Ayah who will give them his 200% to bring the hospital to the next greater level, insya Allah. Amin.

Ayah is indeed one of the best cardiologists around, and his work, especially in peripheral and radial angioplasty, is recognized amongst the cardio fraternity in the region. And I'm not saying all these because he's my husband. He IS one of the best. And the kids and I are very, very proud of him.

In a way, it is a sad moment for Ayah to leave PP*M which had taught him so much. But, it is time to move on.

After giving his 3 months notice last Tuesday, Ayah will officially leave PP*M and start the next phase of his career at the new hospital on his 41st birthday, i.e. on 15th March 2009. He started working with PP*M, on 16th March 1998 - a day after his 30th birthday. So, in a way, it's a nice and neat closure for Ayah, leaving exactly after 11 years with PP*M. Just the way he wants it to be, being a melancholic guy that he is :)

And being a workaholic that he is, he still has 44 days of his annual leave to finish before his last day at PP*M. He'll start his leave on 5th January, 2009, i.e. the kids' first day of school. And insya Allah, for the first time ever, he would not need to rush back to the hospital while settling the kids fees and whatever nots on the first day. And I'm already looking forward to that :)

And hopefully, being his own boss, he will be able to spend more time with the kids, and make up for the times and opportunities lost in the last 10 years and 9 months, insya Allah. Amin.

I'm so excited for him. For the kids. For us.


Come what may, I'm here for you, dear. The kids are here for you, too.

Just continue being the brilliant cardiologist that you are, and you'll be fine.

You'll be more than fine... Wherever you are, wherever you will be in life.

TR*PI*ANA MEDICAL CENTRE is VERY lucky to have you there, my dear.

We want you to know that we are very, very proud of you, and that we love you very, very much - remember that always.

And we make do'a and wish you all the best in your new undertakings at TMC, dearest, dearest Ayah. Amin. Insya Allah...

Monday, December 15, 2008

From man...

Syukur alhamdulillah...Hilman's "snip-snip" was hassle-free and, more importantly, rather "pain-free" for him, except for when Dr. Ra*ak sprayed the freezing cold anaesthetics to his ***** AND, errrr, there was also one part when he was wincing in pain, and when Dr Ra*ak asked him why, he said his Mommy was squeezing his hands too tightly. HAHAHAHA! I was so tensed that I didn't realize I was doing that to him, actually! Be rest assured, Hilman was pain-free after that. Dr. Ra*ak chit-chatted away with him, and before he knew it, it was all done :)

Thank you for the tips given by some of you on the pre and post-snipping's TLCs. A special thanks especially goes to Mrs A. That advice on having Hilman wear a seluar cerut and a big pair of undies (to house the cup-cum-protector was really useful). I never thought about that. I was only thinking of the times when my brothers had their snip-snips more than thirty years ago, and I could only think of one thing - kain pelikat! Come to think of it, I just can't imagine Hilman wearing a kain pelikat walking back to the car after the procedure when all the other boys were wearing normal trousers, etc after their procedures! That would have been quite a sight to behold! Hehehe!

I didn't have time to go and get a decent seluar cerut for Hilman this morning, but, I managed to dig through my wardrobe and found the seluar for my salwar kameez given by a dear friend Mu*ni to me in Newcastle last year which was a perfect (rather baggy pants at the right place) for Hilman to use. I had to fold it a couple of times though, as it was rather long for him. I didn't tell Hilman that they were mine. If not, sure sampai sudah he would not want to wear them!

Ayah reached home from work at 11:25a.m, and we straight away made our way to DSH and reached there at 11:45a.m. Mak was already waiting for us there. My Mommy couldn't make it as she also had a doctor's appointment this afernoon. There were 3 boys who also had their snip-snip before Hilman. His appointment was supposed to be at 12:00p.m but, Dr. Ra*ak only managed to see him at about 12:55p.m. Suffice to say, Hilman was pretty restless waiting for his turn. He kept on asking me for the time. But, seeing the boys who came out of Dr.Ra*ak's clinic before him walking just fine and smiling away (sheepishly, I may add :)) made him feel less anxious, I guess.

All in all, including the cleaning done pre and post-procedure took about 30 minutes or so, and before Hilman knew it, it was all over. Dr Ra*ak is really good with kids, and I think he managed to make Hilman feel relaxed in no time at all! I would recommend him to those who have anak-anak bujang untuk disunatkan. A very nice doctor indeed.

When we reached home, his sisters started teasing him, especially his Kak Long Hanna who kept on asking him if she could see "it" - much to Hilman's horror and annoyance. Hanna kept on going, "Can I see it, dear brother? Please, please...pretty please?" (While batting her eyelids to Hilman!). Even until tonight he's still being teased by the sisters. Anyway, Hanna said somehow her lil' baby brother nampak "macho" pulak after coming back from the hospital (I'm not sure if she really meant it, or it's part of her teasing Hilman, too?). Hahaha!

Anyway, here are some pics of my boy - pre and post snip-snip. Ada nampak difference ke? :)

Sunday, December 14, 2008

In preparation for a new man in the house...

Tomorrow my little boy will move a step nearer to being a man.

Yup, it's the "snip-snip" time for him.

It'll be done by Dr. Ra*ak at DSH. It was initially scheduled for 8:30a.m, but, I received a phonecall from one of his nurses yesterday to inform me that the procedure has been rescheduled to 12:00p.m tomorrow. It makes no difference to me as I will be on leave tomorrow. In fact I'll be on leave until 29 December. But, Ayah would have to reschedule some things at work. He will now have to go to the hospital early tomorrow morning and hopefully he'll be in time for the procedure.

We have had to make some new arrangements and preparations in light of our Hilman becoming a MAN.

First of all, to prepare Hilman mentally, Ayah had a heart-to-heart talk with him two nights ago about the whole thing. We had dinner at Mak's house on Friday night. The kids were sent there earlier in the morning before I went to the office, and I went back to Mak's house after work, as did Ayah. So, after dinner, we went back in separate cars. All the girls went in my car, and the boys went in Ayah's car. Quite convenient for Hilman to ask his Ayah all the necessary stuff about the whole thingy throughout the journey back to SD when he was alone with his Ayah.

Later when I asked Ayah if Hilman told him if he was scared, Ayah told me that Hilman said, "A bit...", but he appeared to be okay with the whole thing. But, was he? Because later that night, he came knocking on our door at 3:30a.m, crying slightly saying that his left knee was hurting, and he asked me to urut his kaki. I massaged the part he showed me which was painful, he curled up against me, and I hugged him tightly until he fell asleep.

After he fell asleep, Ayah and I just looked at each other and we just couldn't help but broke into laughters. Ayah said that Hilman probably had a bad dream or a nightmare about hurting his leg or something like that - all triggered by his anxiety. He was walking just fine when he came into our room. No limping whatsoever. He was (and probably still is) anxious about Monday. I hope and pray that he'll be fine tomorrow, pre-procedure.

Secondly, as mentioned, I'm taking leave until 29 December. If only I could extend it until the kids start school again, but the Uni's second semester starts on 30 December. So, no choice :( I know Hilman will probably need me to bring him to the toilet and all, at least in the first two weeks post-procedure. I know that he will not want Dar to help him with those stuff yang sewaktu dengannya, too. So, I'll be at his becks and calls for the next 2 weeks. It'll be an interesting experience for both of us, I'm sure (and for his sisters, too!)

Thirdly, all this while Hilman has been sharing a room with his sisters. Obviously, that arrangement has to be changed after tomorrow. The kids and I have been pretty busy clearing up our top-floor room for the past one week. The room has been our huge store-room of sort since we first moved in to SD. And we rarely go up there, except when Hilman wanted to play with all of his Hot Wheels tracks. We are now converting it into the girls' room.

But, you can just imagine the state of the room after 12 years of storing all sorts of stuff! At the moment it's full of toys, clothings, old books (especially Ayah's!), and old whatevers. We have managed to divide their old toys and clothings into three groups - those to be donated to Rumah Titian Damai, those they want to keep, and those to be thrown into the bin. I must say, those Alam Flora guys have been working overtime clearing our garbage in the last few days! Ayah's books and stuff are still up there, and we have come to accept the fact that it'll be an impossible task to get the room ready by tomorrow.

We need to really clear everything before we could re-paint the walls, fix an air-cond unit there, and pasang the curtains. And of course, there's the trip to IKEA which the girls have been pestering me the whole of last week. Nasib baik there's already a Queen-sized bed up there which the girls are willing to share, and there's already a set of built-in wardrobe and cabinets in the room. So, it's just to get some additional drawers and lightings for them. And as I'm typing this, we have not even chosen the colour, we have not bought the air-cond, and we have not ordered the curtains yet! I hope to get everything ready for the girls by next Monday, insya Allah. I'll probably post a posting on the room make-over after everything is done nicely :)

Fourthly, I've also stocked up the freezer with ikan-ikan yang tak gatal for Hilman's consumption for the next one week. Luckily, Hilman loves his fish, so, he'll be fine being a "fishetarian" for the next 2-3 weeks. The freezer is full to the brim with all the bawals, kurau, tenggiri, ikan merah and senangin, etc. The only thing left for me to do is to think of what to do with them! Hilman loves his fish just fried with garam kunyit, but his Mommy is thinking more like steamed, souped, sweet "n" sour fish, and the likes for him. Hilman will surely miss his Ay*mas Hot and Spicy chicken :(

Still on food, considering that Hilman will have to berpantang for the next 2-3 weeks, I decided to cook some Laksa Asam for tea today - one of his favourites which he will not be able to take masa pantang because of the belacan in it. And tonight, Ayah will take us out for dinner, most probably at Co*y Co*ner so that Hilman can have as much sharks fin soup as he wants!

And, fifthly, I have all the kain pelikats ready on standby. We bought a few kain pelikat for boys while in Langkawi that day, and I've also taken out quite a number of Ayah's semi-old ones, too :)

The truth be told, I am pretty nervous about tomorrow and the 2-3 weeks that follow actually, but, I don't want Hilman to know that.

Please make do'a that Hilman (and his Mommy!) will be fine for the procedure tomorrow, ya... And, wish Hilman luck, y'all! :)

Thanks so much!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

One of the biggest pahalas...

"One of the biggest pahalas one can get is to make one's mother happy".

And the easiest way, too, if I may add.

That was what I told Hanna and Hasya while we were waiting for Hilman to finish his piano lesson just now. Both the sisters normally finish their lessons at 7:15p.m, while Hilman finishes his session at 7:45p.m. The girls would normally do their homework or read their books while waiting, but it being the school holiday and all, they brought neither with them this time.

So, to kill the time, I asked Hanna to give me a foot massage.

This was what transpired -

Me : Hanna, could you massage my feet, please?

Hanna : Okay, Mommy. Which one?

Me : Both. I did say "feet", right?

Hanna : Alaaahhh, Mommy!

Me : Hey, banyak pahala you get if you make Mommy happy, tau? When you urut my kaki, I feel relaxed and happy. And when I'm happy, you'll get a lot of pahala tau, Hanna. Betul tak, Dar? (Dar, our maid was also there).

Dar : Betul Hanna. Lagi lama Hanna ngurut Mommy, lagi banyak pahalanya yang Hanna dapat.

As Hanna continued massaging my feet, I was going -

Me : I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm so happy! Waaaahhh... Very happy...Bliss. Banyaknya pahala Hanna! (Much to her annoyance, of course. Hehehe!)

Just then, Hasya came out of her class, and Hanna asked her -

Hanna : Hasya, you want pahala, right?

Hasya : (A bit confused, but, said) Yeah... (?)

Hanna : Good! Urut Mommy's right foot while I urut her left foot.

Mommy : Yes, Hasya - I told Kak Long that you'll get a lot of pahala when you urut Mommy's feet, tau?

Hasya : But Mommy!!! Your feet are smelly!!!

Me : Well, the smellier they are, the more pahala you'll get, especially the longer time you urut my kaki, tau, Hasya...

Hanna and Hasya : Eeeeewwwwwhhhh, Mommy!!!

(But, they continued massaging my feet for another 5 minutes).

After 5 minutes -

Me : Okay, thank you, darlings. That was really.....(and both of them dropped both my feet together, at the same time, before I could say) "nice"!

And both ran straight to the toilet at the back of the institute -

Hasya : I want to go to the toilet first, Kak Long!! I want to wash my hands!!

Hanna : Me, too!!


Thank you, girls. Mommy doakan Allah gandakan pahala for you for massaging my smelly feet just now :)

After piano, we went to Nasi Ka*da* Se*ap for dinner as the kids said that they missed eating there. It has been more than a month since we last ate there. Ayah managed to finish his clinic early, and he joined us at 8:45p.m.

Right after dinner, the kids then asked whether we could go to Gr*nd Un*on Supermarket to get some DVDs. Again, their excuse/reason was "Dah laaaaaammmaaaa tak pergi Gr*nd Un*on, Mommy". Anyway, they were right. The last time we went to get DVds there was probably 2 months ago!

However, Ayah was pretty tired by the time he finished his dinner, and wanted to go home straight to rest. So, I had to bring them to Gr*nd Un*on myself.

As we were going up the stairs to the first floor of the supermarket where they sell the DVDs, Hilman said this to me -

Hilman : Mommy, I like it when you wear this baju la, Mommy.

Me : Why, Hilman?

Hilman : You look nice in this baju, Mommy. You look thin in black. Pretty.

Me : Do I REALLY, Hilman?!

Hilman : Yes, Mommy. Black makes you look thin and nice.

Now, THAT surely made this one fat Mommy VERY happy, I tell you... Cair I dibuatnya...

So, guys, I'm a VERY HAPPY mother tonight. Firstly, happy when my girls gave me a very nice foot massage, and secondly, when my boy gave me such sweet compliments. (And I think he really meant it because he was not there when I told his sisters about the pahala thingy at the Music Institute earlier on. Hehehe! :))

Memang banyak pahala anak-anak Mommy dapat malam ni, and Mommy doakan that all of you will remember to make me (and Ayah) happy throughout your lives and will accumulate all the pahala you all truly deserve, insya Allah. Amin.

Because I AM TRULY HAPPY every single second of the day of my life being your Mommy.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Great weekend...

I received this SMS from Ab*d - one of my MT friends at 6:29p.m, on Friday 5th December -

Are u interested to join me for Es*o Dinner tomoro night? Faizal tahir is the guest artist.

My reply -

VERY interestd maaaa! Where? How much? Theme? SET!!! M driving now. Will call later.

As it turned out, the dinner was at The Pa*ac* of Go*de* Ho*se*, my ticket was on Ab*d, and the theme was "Fantasy Night".

As it was quite a last minute thing, I could not think of any good fantasies that I could translate into my dinner attire. So, I just put some black clothings together and went as Woman in Black. Boring. I know. I'm a clean girl. No fantasy whatsoever. The fantasies that I MAY have had may not be suitable for public exhibits in the first place, anyway. HAHAHAHA!

Ab*d went in a gorgeous turqoise top with a pair of smart black velvet pants, as she could not think of what to wear, too. Her initial idea was to go in a smart working suit because she said her fantasy was to become the CEO of the organization. Hey, I wouldn't call that a "fantasy", dear, but rather "an aspiration". Very achievable :)

And Faizal Tahir. What can I say? One word - SUPERB. And if I may add a few more words - SO HOT and so chomei!!!

But, alas...No photos :(

I didn't bring the camera, but I tried snapping some shots using my phone. Memang sakit hati and sakit jiwa coz' punyalah delayed reaction! I would snap the pics, say at 10:22:25 p.m, and the images would only be captured at say, 10:22:32p.m and by that time, all I could get was the back of Faizal's head (or worse - somebody else's head!!!) AAAArrrrrggghhh!!! Tapi, tak per...yang penting I WAS THERE, and at one point he was just 2 feet away from me!!! Tak bernafas I selama 15 saat you all...Hahaha!

We left the hotel at about 11:35p.m and reached Ab*d's place at Vi*la Da*an*ar* around 12:00 midnite. I had parked my car there earlier in the day, and we had coffee while waiting for Ayah to come to "escort" me home - jadi my outrider. Sayang jugak kat bini. He wouldn't allow me to drive alone at night, even though Ab*d's house is just about 15 minutes away from ours. Anyway, Ayah came just after 1:00a.m, and joined us for coffee. We only left Ab*d's place about 1:30a.m.

Thank you, Ab*d, for being my sponsor. And, oh ya! Congratulations for winning the Lucky Draw for the RM400 shopping vouchers! Can sponsor my shopping, too, eh? ;)

And this morning, we attended Ayah's friend's kids' birthday bash at Shangri-la KL. It was the daughter's 3rd birthday, and the son's 7th birthday. There were bouncy castles, face painting, tatoo painting, painting/drawing booths, and some game whereby you have to grab some silver/gold papers flying in this inflatable plastic cage or something. The kids had fun playing all sorts of games organized by the event crew. And, oh ya, there was also a CLOWN.

Ibu, I think it was the SAME clown you had for Ameer's birthday that day. We were not sure at first. He looked like that dude who was at your place - but you can't really tell clowns apart, can you? Anyway, one thing gave it away. Hanna was the one who spotted it. He kept on saying his tagline "I'll kiss you" to the kids. Memang SAH!!! Same dude. Hahahaha! :)

And the kids got some cool party packs and helium-filled balloons to bring home.

Hmmmmm....No evidence of economic crunch at Shangri-la today. That's for sure.

Again, sorry...No pics :( Hanna left the camera in the car boot, and we were just too lazy to go down to the basement parking to get it.

Anyway, it was a really great party. The kids enjoyed themselves tremendously!

Thank you, Dato' Fa*eh and Datin Fi** for being such gracious and wonderful hosts :)

It has been a swell weekend for us, even for Ayah. FYI, Ayah had his karaoke session with his friends on Friday night which continued until the wee hours of Saturday morning. He SMSd earlier after finishing his clinic at 10:30p.m that he was joining his primary school friends for dinner in Bangsar, and that he would be home within an hour. Yours truly waited for him, and fell asleep (thank God! If not, sure tension menunggu!). I woke up a few times from 12:30a.m until about 2:30a.m and still no sign of Ayah! It was at 3:30a.m when I woke up again and saw Ayah performing his solat in the room. Apparently he only reached home at 3:00a.m! So much for "an hour" with his friends, huh? So, it was fair and square - Ayah ALSO had his dose of fun this weekend ;)

And tomorrow will be even better. Time to be with the family to celebrate Hari Raya. At least the first half of the day, that is. The second half of the day, like the previous two years, Ayah and I will be running on our rounds to distribute daging korban, insya Allah. Syukur alhamdulillah, this year Ayah, myself and the kids again mendapat rezqi untuk korban satu bahagian masing-masing. Hope to be able to do the same for the next four years to cukupkan 7 bahagian masing-masing, insya Allah.

Before I sign off, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all of you -

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Adha.

Enjoy the time with the family, but at the same time do spend some thoughts and prayers for the less fortunate. Special thoughts and mention for the victims and those affected by the various landslides which occured in the last few days in Klang Valley.

Al-fatihah to those who had perished in the tragedy, and a special prayer for their loved ones to be strong in these very sad and difficult times. Amin.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Qadha' posting...

Salams. This is going to be brief - menunaikan janji to post an entry on Hanna's birthday do, and also on the kids' new "toys" for their exam results.

Yes - Ayah finally kalah dengan pujuk raya anak-anak (seperti biasa...Hehehe) and they each got their reward in the forms of these.

And Hilman somehow accidentally dropped his PSP on the floor when we were in Langkawi and ruined the screen :( which made both Ayah and I VERY upset, indeed. After a round of berleter from each of us (and I added a 20-minute isolation in the dark powder room to my leteran), we realized that however upset we were, Hilman would have felt even more upset with the whole thing. It was his reward for getting No. 1, and barely a week, it was (slightly) damaged. He was trying to convince us that he was okay playing with it - damaged screen or not, but we didn't want to hear any of that. So, we took the PSP away from him, and we told him that we were keeping it indefinitely.

But, after a while, bila dah cool down sikit, we told ourselves that it was only a PSP. A material thing. And after coming back from Langkawi, both Ayah and I mendapat rezqi in other forms, syukur alhamdulillah. And a few days after we were back in KL, Ayah decided to just send the PSP for repair. The screen costs quite a bomb (considering it's JUST a screen!), but, we decided to just go ahead with replacing it. As I'm typing this, the PSP is still in the "workshop". Insya Allah we'll get it back next week. And Hilman doesn't know that he's getting it back. I just hope we're doing the right thing, and I just hope he would be extra careful with it from now on.

Moving along - Hanna's birthday do. Like the previous two years, Hanna wanted to have a makan-makan with her friends to celebrate her birthday.

So, we had a small bash at Ms Re*d's De*ici*us at One-Ut*ma with Hanna inviting her friends - Na* Ra*li, Na* Roslan, El*nna, Aq*la, Ma* and Mi*a, and we were later joined by my SIL Ly*n and family. One thing about this place - they serve REALLY big portions. Hongeh nak perabiskan!

And oh ya - we found out that Mi*a's Dad - Ju*ai*i, is from our batch, and went to KPP with us. In fact Ayah knew him then. In fact he came over to my MIL's house way back then with a few of Ayah's SAS friends! Such a small world indeed :)

Here are some pics! Enjoy!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Our Langkawi Trip...

Salams, and Hi, y'all.

I know...I know... our Langkawi trip tales are rather lemau already, but, I was so busy last week, and only managed to upload the pics to my Slide account today.

I'll let the pics do the talking, huh?

But, briefly -

Second day - the weather was glorious, and we spent the day enjoying the hotel pool and beach, and later we went island-hopping to Dayang Bunting, Beras Basah, and Singa Besar (the last island - we didn't go on land, but we fed the eagles from our boat). We had fun at the beach, and also at the Dayang Bunting Lake. Hilman said that was his favourite part of the holiday :). Went back to the hotel around 5p.m., and Ayah was kind enough to let Hanna and I have a mother-daughter bonding time at the Aroamas Spa, while he whiled away the time playing ping-pong with Hilman and Hasya.

Only 18+ are allowed actually, but we told them that Hanna was 16 (tipu sunat!), and they let her in :). We went for the steam room, sauna, Balinese massage, Mandi Lulur and ended the session with the Mandi Bunga. All that in 2 1/2 hours. Bliss...(but, this surely burnt a hole in Ayah's pocket! But, sekali-sekala okay kan, Ayah?!) Thank you, Ayah... Mommy and Hanna REALLY enjoyed our bonding time at the spa...

Kesian Hasya... She was upset that she could not join us at the spa. Not even for a hair treatment session! She said it was not fair because when we were at Kuantan Swiss Ga*den, she was allowed to have the hair treatment with her Kak Long. Anyway, to make up for it, I had some bonding time with her at the room later - teaching her the right way to makan kuachi. Hahaha!

Third day - we had very fine weather, too. We spent it at the KILIM Geo Park (went to two caves, a fish farm, eagle feeding, etc - all along the mangrove coast). We then went to the Wildlife Park, where the kids played with some very cute and some not very cute birds and mammals and reptiles. Ostriches - NOT cute at all. So garang and lahap I tell you!!! We then proceeded to the Durian Perangin Waterfalls where all the girls decided to just watch Ayah and Hilman had fun in the VERY cold water. After about 20 minutes, both of them decided to call it a day. Dah menggigil-gigil...

We then went to the Oriental Village for some light shopping, and the kids had some fun time playing with some pythons... (Eeeeewwwww...Urggghhhhh...AAAArrrgggghhhh!!) They definitely didn't get their courage and bravery handling those slimy, scaly, slithering thingies from Ayah and I. That's for sure! Meremang bulu roma I...

Fourth day - it started to rain from 4a.m in the morning up until the time we reached the airport at 7p.m to catch our flight back to KL! But, no worries there because most of the time was spent indoors anyway, ESPECIALLY at the Haji Ismail Group Duty Free Shops in Kuah. I need not elaborate on this, lah kan? Suffice to say, we again burnt a BIG hole in Ayah's pocket with my Herb Country Corningware shopping spree!

It's okay, Ayah...nanti I tampal balik the holes, okay? :)

We reached KLIA at 10:30p.m, and only reached SD about midnight.

Everybody had great fun in Langkawi, and we're planning to go again next year. We'll probably do something different next time. The snorkelling trip to Pulau Payar will be high on the agenda next year, insya Allah :)

Enjoy the pics!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Greetings from....

Salams, and Greetings from Pulau Corningware!!! (Ooops! I meant to say "Langkawi" ;))

First and foremost, thank you for all the birthday wishes for Hanna, and please accept my apologies for not counter-commenting, as I had asked the tuanpunya badan to do so personally. As I'm typing this, there are still a few which she had not counter-commented, and she asked me to let you all know that she would do it soon :)

I meant to post an entry on Hanna's birthday dinner with her friends first, but, alas, the pics are all in my notebook which I have not brought here with me. And of course - a posting on the kids' new gadgets, too ;). Yup, everybody is extremely happy with their new "toys". Will blog about these once I'm back in KL, okay, y'all?

Anyway, arrived here yesterday at 3:05p.m, and after getting our rented car at the airport, we checked in at the hotel. Hmmmm...I think our firstborn was not that happy with the hotel when she saw the reception area, etc. Well, if she was comparing Sh*ra*on Langkawi with Ho*da* Vi*la, memang la like cannot be happy one! Hehehe! One is 5 Star...this one is 5 Moon (borrowing Ayah's terminology on hotel ratings. Hahaha!)

The last time we were here last year, we stayed at Sh*ra*on for 2 nights and then at Be*ja*a for another two. The Sh*ra*on stay was fully sponsored as Ayah was having a meeting there. Nak tanggung sendiri...Aiyooo...bayar instalments boleh tak? Hehehe! We wanted to stay there again, but, because they're five of us (and Hanna is already 13, and considered an adult), we were told that we had to book 2 rooms. Errrr, thank you, but no thank you! Kalau satu room tu, okay lagi lah kot...

Ayah surfed the net and the ONLY hotel which could accept our reservation online for 1 room for 3 Adults and 2 Kids was Ho*ida* Vi*la. All other hotels required us to book 2 rooms.'s not The Ritz, but, it's nice (ish). Hehehe! I think we've got the best room - the last room, right beside the swimming pool and facing the sea. As Ayah puts it - we don't have to wear any slippers when we want to go to the beach. It's grass - sand - sea, right outside our door :).

It has the main bedroom which has 2 Super Single beds and a Sofa bed which can sleep 2, which has an attached bathroom. It also has the living area which has another sofa bed which can sleep another one, which has an attached washroom to it. It has two TVs, and one DVD player (even though the kids have brought their own). All in all, I think 7 people could sleep comfortably here. Hmmmm, next time when dah tambah anak lagi 2, we can book this place again. Hahahaa!

It was just an easy evening for us yesterday. Ayah brought the kids to the swimming pool around 6p.m and they then went to the beach to watch the sunset. Ayah said it was pretty breath-taking. Why wasn't I there witnessing this breath-takingly beautiful sunset with them? Well, while the kids and Ayah were doing all that, I was snoring away in the room - qadha' tido... Bliss! Hehehe! I only had about 3 hours of sleep the night before, packing EVERYBODY'S stuffs to bring to Langkawi. I had been pretty busy up to the day before and didn't have time to start packing earlier. Started packing at 11p.m, and only went to sleep at 5:30a.m!

We had dinner at Maya Seafood which is just about twenty metres from the Hotel main entrance. Unfortunately (or fortunately?!) we will not be indulging ourselves too much in seafood this time around, as Hilman has developed an allergy. He has developed some rashes above his upper-lips. According to the doctor, it's quite common amongst asthmatic kids. A kind of eczema thingy. Kesian Hilman coz' he's the one yang REALLY into seafood. So, to be fair on him and so as not to tempt him, everybody agreed to order a non-seafood dish each last night.

Anyway, we don't have any specific plans just yet, but, we're definitely doing stuff which we didn't manage to do the last time we were here. I was just reading Myheartbleeds's entry on her Langkawi trip with her girls, and we're definitely going island hopping, maybe tomorrow. The KLIM Geopark package seems interesting, too. And as the kids really enjoyed themselves at Telaga Tujuh Waterfall dulu, that would be in our itinerary, too. We're giving the Cable Car, and Mahsuri Museum a miss this time. The Pulau Payar thingy takes the whole day, and we decided to give it a miss, too. Insya Allah, ada rezqi next time.

But, errrr...somehow the "Corningware Package" which will probably take the whole day, too, IS in the itinerary, buleh?! Hehehehe...

Signing off now! Will post the pics when Hanna has transferred them into this notebook.

Have a great weekend, y'all!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Happy Birthday...

13 years ago, on a cold winter morning, when Newcastle upon Tyne had its first snow of the year, the sweetest, and pinkest baby was born at the Royal Victoria Infirmary. She had the blackest of hair, and lips as red as rubies.

I remember the night before, my sister Lala and I had planned to go for a meal of Fish and chips the next day. But, of course it didn't materialize as I had to start my pantang the next day when that sweet little bundle of joy decided to arrive early by 12 days :)

I remember having the first contractions at 4:00a.m in the morning, and waking Ayah up to tell him that it was time. Ayah being Ayah, he was pretty calm about everything :)

I remember how Ayah had to scrape the ice off the windshield for nearly 20 minutes before we could start the journey to the hospital.

I remember the drive to the hospital going through the icy road at 4:30a.m in the morning. The drive which normally would have taken 20 minutes took us nearly an hour.

I remember the pain so vividly, and how her heartbeat would drop everytime I had my contractions, and I remember how worried and anxious Ayah and I were to see the doctors rushing in and out of the labour room.

And I remember the last push when she finally wailed out to the whole wide world...

I remember Ayah performing the qamat, and the look on his face was priceless as he held his first child in that delivery room.

I remember holding her for the first time, counting her little fingers and toes, and smelling her baby smell, and I shed tears of joy.

I remember having to undergo the pantang under my sister's supervision, which ended up not much as a pantang :)

I remember Ayah and I were tiptoeing all the time, fearing that we would wake the baby up.

I remember going up and down the stairs on the cold winter nights trying to untrap the wind in her tummy.

I remember everything oh so clearly...

Yes, I remember 13 years ago today, we had our first-born - Hanna Suhaila :)

If I had to go through the whole experience again, I would not change a thing, and I would willingly go through all the pains again, and have her again...and again...

To my Darling Hanna,

Happy 13th Birthday. Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dan menjadi anak yang solehah, dan berbudi pekerti tinggi. Semoga dilimpahi berkat dan rahmat. And Mommy and Ayah pray that you'll be the most wonderful daughter and showered with love and success throughout your life. Amin.

Ayah and Mommy love you very, very much.

Remember that.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Rumour has it...

Hmmmm, since the kids only finished their exams on 7th November, the school year ended with us not knowing their official final exam results! Apparently, Hanna will get her official results online towards the end of November, while Hasya and Hilman will only get their Report Books when they register for the next academic year!

1, 2, 3 - AAAARRRGGGGHHH!!! Tergamak their schools do this to their pupils?!! (Or rather - to their KIASU parents?!!

But, dengan pengiraan yang telah dibuat sendiri dengan membandingkan markah-markah anak-anak kami dengan markah-markah anak-anak mak bapak kiasu yang lain, yang mana anak-anak mereka merupakan our kids "competitions" in class, kira tolak campur bahagi beberapa kali (errr...more than 20 kali actually, especially dalam kes-kes yang agak musykil dan was-was, serta tak puas hati. Hehehe!), rumor has it that -

Hanna will get 2nd place behind Fa*hana a.k.a "The-girl-who-can-never-be-beaten....ever" (according to Hanna lah). Believe it or not, in almost ALL of the subjects, Fa*hana beat Hanna by 1 mark! But, syukur alhamdulillah, her marks are VERY impressive indeed. And she has climbed up 4 places. She was 6th in the Mid-Year Exam. And it goes without saying - that MOMMY AND AYAH ARE SO VERY PROUD OF YOU, HANNA!!!

Ini "rumor has it" laaa... :)

Hasya also (amost definitely) telah melepaskan her takhta to Im*an (yup...the boy whose marks were our main concerns in my last posting. Hehehe!). Imran beat her by 2 marks. The final paper that they got, which was Science - Hasya got second highest in class. Even though she beat Im*an by 6 marks in Science, his overall total was 446/500, while Hasya's overall was 444/500 (not a good number, huh? Hehehe!) So, from #1, she is now in #2. She has worked really hard for the exams, and she either got 1st or 2nd highest in all the subjects! And it goes without saying that MOMMY AND AYAH ARE SO VERY PROUD OF YOU, HASYA!!!

Ini "rumor has it" laaa... :)

And Hilman has retained his #1 position! Hip Hip Hooray!!! He got highest for two of the subjects (Science and English), 2nd highest for Maths, and 3rd highest for BM. I think compared to his friends, Hilman is quite consistent, in the sense that he's always up there in the top 3. That's why, syukur alhamdulillah, the #1 spot is his. His friends who got highest or high marks in some of the subjects, did not do that okay in their other subjects, and that had pulled them down. So now, Ayah and I are debating whether Hilman has followed him ("Science" brain?) or me ("Social Science" brain?). He seems to be good in both fields. Hmmmmm? Science brain or Social science brain, it goes without saying that MOMMY AND AYAH ARE SO VERY PROUD OF YOU, HILMAN!!!

Ini "rumour has it" laaa.... :)

(Can only be verified in 1-2 months time maaaa...)

AND rumour has it that their Ayah is planning to reward them with COOL stuff for their achievements over the school holidays ni. YAHOOO!!! But, Ayah is in a dilemma - should he wait for the official results to come out before he goes out and get those cool stuff? But, that will be so late maaahhh!!! We're hoping to add some excitement to their cuti sekolah with those cool gadgets ;) Hmmmm, to play safe, tunggu next year, kot? ;)

Errrr, Hanna, Hasya and Hilman - part Ayah wanting to buy the cool stuffs for you all ni pun, kira "rumour has it" aje, tau?... :)


* Hanna, jangan tension, okay? ;)*

Monday, November 10, 2008

Sleepless, Panic and Proud in SD...

It has been a crazy 24 hours for me, and I need a break. Badly. So, here I am - blogging.

I had two articles to submit this week. One today, and another one on Wednesday. Both articles are actually based on my Powerpoint presentations - one which I had done 4 months ago, and another one just two weeks ago.

It was supposed to be an easy peasy thingy, as I only needed to expand on my Powerpoint slides, right? Well, hell no. I had been putting all these on hold (in other words - I HAD PROCRASTINATED), that I had in fact forgotten where I had kept record of all of the references which I used for my Powerpoint slides especially the one I presented four months ago! To write an academic article without giving due credits to your sources would be an unforgivable, biggest sin, I tell you... So, I had no choice but to dig all my sources up again...

So, I was up all night last night, expanding my slides into comprehendable sentences, to form reasonably decent paragraphs, to come up with an article of 6,000 words in length. With all my sources (books, articles, case summaries, etc.) spread all over the bed, I was typing, while flicking through the materials, and checking some online sources, etc., all at the same time.

With the whole bed being conquered by my good self and all those papers scattered all over it, Ayah had to sleep on the mattress on the floor last night. Kesian... But, it's actually good for your back, dear. You have slipped discs, remember? (Hehehe!)

Ayah had sent all three kids to Mak's house last night actually, due to several factors -

(i) Ayah was leaving for Tokyo (again) this morning on the 9:00a.m flight and he had to leave for KLIA by 6:15a.m. This would have meant that he would not be able to send Hanna to school, which in turn would have meant that yours truly would have to do just that, driving all the way from SD to Sr* Am*n at 6:45a.m, and then coming back to SD again.

(ii) But, as yours truly had been bogged down with work since yesterday and it didn't look like yours truly would be able to finish it even if she didn't sleep for two nights, we decided that it would be easier if the kids stayed in PJ. Adek would be able to send Hanna to school in the morning, while Za*a (Mak's driver) would be able to send and fetch Hasya and Hilman to and from school today.

(iii) And I need total ME time to produce a good piece of writing under 12 hours.

So, the kids were all deposited with Mak last night.

I was doing my work until about 3:00a.m when I must have fallen asleep, only to wake up at 5:20a.m. when the alarm clock went off. I somehow noticed that Ayah had woken up, but, I just could not open my eyes, and went straight back to sleep, only to be woken up again, this time by Ayah, at 6:15a.m when he was about to leave for KLIA. The airport limo was already waiting outside. Kiss-kiss, muah-muahs and off he went (with yours truly still curled up under the duvet...)

At 7:45a.m. I woke up to the sound of a car alarm from a neighbour's house, and continued working on my article. Ayah called twice from KLIA before boarding the plane - just to make sure that I was indeed doing my work, and not sleeping as he knew that I had to finish the article by today. Thanks, dear :)

By 8:30a.m, I knew that it was impossible to concentrate on writing my article, so I called my HoD, asking his permission to work from home today as I found it such a hassle to pack and unpack all the materials and continue with my writing if I were to go to the office this morning.

And I had been working from 7:45a.m straight, only to have a few minutes breaks here and there to have my brunch (of sup foochuk and kaki ayam), and dinner (of Maggi Laksa!), and to freshen up and perform my solat.

And it was at 6:25p.m when I realized that I had not informed Mak's driver that he was supposed to fetch Hasya and Hilman from school! And the kids finish school at 6:20p.m. every Monday! We've always had this understanding that on Mondays, he would send them to school, and I would fetch them and go straight back to SD. Somehow, I totally forgot to tell him that I would not be able to fetch the kids today and that he was supposed to fetch them instead! Yikes!!!

Panic giler... I straight away called him only to find out that he was already on his way home! My mind was muddled up, and I started to panic. I didn't want to trouble my MIL by asking her to go through the peak-time traffic to fetch the kids! But, if I were to set off from SD then, I would only reach the school at 7:15p.m earliest! That would be way too late, and I didn't want the kids to wait that long - just the two of them there. I tried calling Adek to ask if she could fetch the kids, but she was in the bathroom! That would probably take a long time, and I started to panic big time!

Syukur Alhamdulillah, I managed to get hold of Na*ir*h (Mama of Hasya's bestfriend, Al*a) on the phone, and syukur alhamdulillah she had yet to fetch Al*a from school lagi at that time and she didn't mind fetching Hasya and Hilman and send them to Mak's house. Legaaaa... Thanks, Na*i. I owe you BIG TIME!

Boleh I terlupa about my kids in the midst of my work yang bertimbun ni?! Ish, ish, ish... Tak pernah dibuatnya! Nasib baik jugak I realized at 6:25p.m. Mak would not have suspected anything if the kids tak sampai her house this evening because she would have thought that I had gone to the office today and I would have fetched them and brought them straight to SD from school like I normally would do on Mondays! I cringe to think of what might have happened if I totally forgot about the kids tadi. This had never happened to me before.

Anyway, the kids called me up when they reached their Wan's house to update their Mommy on their Final Exam results, which I then SMSd to Ayah (who insisted that I update him everyday!)

This was the SMS that I sent to him at 11:27p.m -

MIN (i.e. Hasya) Eng 93 highst, Pemahamn 86, highst 95 (x im*an), Penulisn 91, highst 92 (x im*an), Maths 96 (im*an 97.5), Agama 90, Seni A. Boils down to Sci now.

MAN (i.e. Hilman) Sci 100, Eng 93 (both hghst), Maths 97 (2nd. Highst 99.5), BM 89 (highst 96), Agama 88, Seni A.

Hope both gd enuf 4 #1!

To those who have been analyzing the text message, you all had probably come to these conclusions -

(i) Both Ayah and Mommy are ultimate Kiasu parents

(ii) Im*an is Hasya's competition in class (everybody else's markah are so not important, EXCEPT for Im*an's)

(iii) Both Ayah and Mommy memang tak akan tido malam - menunggu Hasya's Science paper results, and also Hasya's and Hilman's position in class...

With or without their positions in class, Syukur Alhamdulillah, both Hasya and Hilman have done really well. And so has their Kak Long Hanna who so far has got highest and/or Top 3 for all her subjects.


And I'm also proud of myself, by the way, because at 10:50p.m. just now, I managed to e-mail my finished article to my colleague finally. Yippeeee!!! And surpise, surprise - instead of 6000 words, I managed to torak to more than 8000 words altogether ;)

I'm so gonna give myself a treat this weekend...and of course, my kids, too! Hehehe!

But, in the meantime, another piece of article beckons me... nak kena submit this Wednesday...Sigh...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Post-exam, pre-holiday ramblings, and Mr. Prefect Elected...

Hasya and Hilman had just finished their Final Exams today, and it's so nice to see the two of them fooling around again after a rigourous week of studying and revising. Even though Hasya always bosses Hilman around, they really get on very well with each other. And I just love to hear them joke and laugh together. Both of them have very infectious laughters, especially Hilman.

The two of them were supposed to return all their Buku Pinjaman tomorrow. However, without me knowing, Hilman had returned ALL his books to his class teacher just now. I had wanted to check his books before returning them - just to make sure that they still look like books after being in Hilman's possession for nearly a year. But, I guess there's no need for that now. Or maybe, I should just go and see his teacher tomorrow? If the books that he returned today look like belacan, it's only right that we should replace them with new ones so that the recipients for next year would not be turned off reading just by looking at them!

As expected, Hasya's books are just immaculate. Too immaculate in fact - macam tak pernah dibaca! Hehehe...But, I know that she did read them. She's the type who would not open her books fully when she reads them, just so that she would not crease the spine. That's Hasya for you. Tahan tu - dok 'mengintai' the pages everytime she reads her books. She has set all her buku pinjaman aside just now, and insisted on tying them up with a string before returning them to the school tomorrow. Mana lah nak cari tali rafia malam ni? But, Hasya being Hasya, she needs the string TONIGHT. Like NOW. Sigh...

Besides the textbooks business, there are also a few forms which we need to fill in and return to their class teachers by tomorrow. One is the Borang Naik Darjah, and the other one is Borang Tempahan Baju Pengawas for Hilman.

Yup - my dear boy is going to be a prefect next year.

We could not believe it at first when he came back a couple of weeks ago telling us the news.

It was like -

Hilman : Mommy, I'm going to be a prefect next year, Mommy.

Me : Awwwhhh...Congratulations, Hilman! But, are you sure? Or are you just being nominated ajer?

Hilman : Errr...I dunno..(typical of him! Hehehe!)

Me : Can you find out for sure, please?

Hasya : Mommy, for Std. Three prefects, they don't have to go for the interview lah, Mommy. Usually, if the teachers nominate the students, they terus jadi pengawas.

Me : Hmmm...are you sure?

Hasya : Ya lah, Mommy. But, I can't believe Hilman can jadi pengawas, lah Mommy.

Mommy : Why not?

Hasya : He's like a baby and not garang at all!

(Hasya is a prefect, and a VERY garang one at that! Hehehe!)

Hilman : Kak Ngah, I'm not a baby!!!

Hasya : Well, sometimes you act like one!

Hilman : KAK NGAH!!!

Hanna : Hilman, do you know what you're supposed to do as a pengawas?

Hilman : I jaga kelas lah. If the pupils are noisy, I marah and write their names lah.

Hanna : Aiyooo...Cannot imagine Hilman marah la, Mommy!!

Hasya : Ya baby only!

Hilman : KAK NGAH!!!

Me : Okay, okay...that's enough. Hilman, what did your teacher tell you?

Hilman : That I jadi pengawas la next year.

Me : I'm so proud of you, Hilman. Hmmmmm, how do you feel about the whole thing? How did you feel when your teacher told you?

Hilman : I had tears in my eyes, Mommy...

Me : Hah?! Tears??!! Why, Hilman?!

Hilman : Tears of joy, Mommy...

(And Hanna and Hasya just burst out laughing! Trust the sisters to do that...)

And when he told his Ayah the news later that night, Ayah's first reaction was -

Ayah : Hah??!! Are you sure, Hilman? (while looking at me, trying to get confirmation, before, hugging Hilman and continuing -) Congrats, Hilman! I'm so proud of you!

Hilman : (Dengan selambanya) I know. (Hehehe!)

Anyway, so tomorrow, the tailor will be going to the school to get the measurements for the uniforms, and Hilman needs to pay RM171/= which covers 1 long-sleeve blue shirt, 2 short-sleeved blue shirt, 2 vests and 1 T-Shirt Pengawas. Itu tak masuk lagi his school trousers (he needs at least 3 pairs!) and kasut hitam (2 pairs). And he doesn't need to order/get the Pengawas tie, as Hasya has two. She doesn't need them for next year. She'll be in Std. 4 - most junior in the morning session, so, she won't be a prefect anymore. And I think I still have Hanna's primary school prefect ties lying somewhere in the house.

My only worry now is - by the end of the school holidays, takut Hilman dah outgrew the prefect uniforms to be measured esok ni... At the rate he's going (with his frequent friendly visits to the fridge, and all) ada chance tak muat nanti...

Hilman, even though your Kak Long and Kak Ngah have been teasing you, WE (Mommy, Ayah AND your sisters) are very confident that you'll be a very good prefect, okay? Just that, maybe it's not a good idea to write down EVERYBODY's name in your little black book, for even the slightest rule-bending and rule-breaking, okay? :)

You can do it, Hilman.


Monday, November 3, 2008

Bahasa Malaysia 101...

I was with Hasya and Hilman preparing them for their Final Exams while Hanna was doing her Maths exercises, and Ayah was busy preparing their Maths and Science mock papers at the dining table last night.

I had come up with Hasya's and Hilman's Bahasa Malaysia mock papers, and was just looking through their exercise books to check on anything that I might have missed, when I overheard the conversations below -

Conversation 1

Hasya : Kak Long, what is "mandi yang tidak bersih"?

Hanna : Hasya, you should know this lah!

Hasya : Is it "mandi gajah"?


Hasya : Kak Long!!!! I know it has something to do with a big animal!!! Is it "mandi badak" then?!

Hanna lagi lah tergolek tergelak...

Conversation 2

Hasya : Kak Long, what is "batu api"?!

Hanna : Hmmmmm, how do I explain, huh?

Just then, Hilman butted in excitedly -

Hilman : I know, I know! It's like when Kak Long has big thighs, and she doesn't like her thighs, and I am "batu api" and I asked Kak Ngah to call her "Thunder thighs! Thunder thighs!!! I am "batu api" lah!


All of us tergelak bagai nak rak after that!

Conversation 3

Hilman : When do I use "Beta", "Patik", "Tuanku" and "Baginda", Mommy?

Me : Well, if you are a King, or Queen or a Sultan or Putera Raja, or Tuan Puteri, you would adress yourself as "Beta". But, if you're a commoner or orang biasa, when you speak to the King, you address yourself as "Patik", and you would address the King as "Tuanku" when you speak to him. And you use "Baginda" when you're talking ABOUT the King, Putera Raja and all.

Hilman : HUH???!!!

I started giving examples to him and I had to explain to him at least 6 times, and towards the end I was fuming and so exasperated with him....I memang tak sabar when I teach the kids, and he got a couple of smacks and flicks to his ear, too, in the process. I know...I know...I'm such a mean mom-teacher :(

And suddenly, Hasya said -

Hasya : Why do they have to make our lives so difficult?! Do we HAVE to use those kata ganti nama for the royal family?! It would be easier for us kids if we just use the normal kata ganti nama, you know?!

(Sorry, Hasya... no such thing as "easy" for your exams, okay?)

Anyway, at least last night I knew that Hasya was very weak when it comes to her Simpulan Bahasa, while Hilman - his kata ganti nama (besides the royal terms, he was also having difficulty differentiating between "Kita" and "Kami"!

I hope I've done enough to help them improve in their understanding of Bahasa Malaysia.

I guess I'll only know for sure when the results come out...

And tonight, I'm coming up with their English mock papers pulak...

Thursday, October 30, 2008

If I were up against Brangelina...

Hanna and I were on our way to SBL to get some workbooks for the kids in preparation for their exams on Tuesday morning, when Richard Reid went on the "JJ & Rudy Morning Crew Show" on Hitz FM with some Hollywood gossips. What else, but, more on celebrities going through break-ups and divorces.

And suddenly Hanna asked me -

Hanna : Mommy, do you think Angelina Jolie really is a home-wrecker?

Me : Well, I believe she admitted that her affair with Brad Pitt started when they were filming Mr & Mrs Smith, and at that time Brad Pitt was still married to Jennifer Aniston. So, in a way - yeah, she is a home-wrecker...

Hanna : Kesian kan Jennifer Aniston? Angelina Jolie is so bad.

Me : Well, Hanna, it takes two to tango. Kalau Brad Pitt tak mengada nak melayan Angelina Jolie, it would not have led to anything.

Hanna : Do you think Jennifer Aniston is still angry with them?

Me : I'm sure she is. Her marriage crumbled because of them. If I were her, it would be very difficult to not be angry. I would be very angry for a long, long time.

Hanna : Do you think she's angrier with Brad Pitt or with Angelina Jolie, Mommy?

Me : Well, if I were her, I would be angrier with Brad Pitt. He was her husband. For better or for worse. He should have stayed faithful to her. Angelina Jolie was never in their marriage equation. If I were Jennifer Aniston, I would definitely be angrier with Brad Pitt. Fullstop.

Hanna : If you were Jennifer Aniston, (Hahahaha! Wishful thinking!) would you forgive them?

Me : Hmmmm, difficult to say, Hanna. IF I were Jennifer Aniston - even though I may say that I could forgive them, DEEP inside I know I could never do so 100%. And I definitely will not forget. That's for sure. Maybe given time I could forgive them for having the affair. Maybe the affair might not have led to anything pun. Maybe, Brad Pitt would come back to me at the end of it. BUT, I don't think I could forgive him for making me lose the trust I had in him. THAT is not a good feeling to have all your life, you know - not being able to trust him again. EVER. And I guess I could never forgive him for that.

And Hanna just nodded her head as if she understood what I was trying to say.

And we both went very quiet for a good 5 minutes after that.


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

My de-stressing process...

Thanks to all who had put in words of comfort and advice in my "Stressed Out" posting before this. It felt good after I poured everything in the posting, but, it felt even better reading your comments. Thanks again :)

Just an update on what happened after that posting -

FRIDAY 24/10/08

(1) I managed to finish all that was needed to be done by 5:30a.m, and somehow I also managed to squeeze in a 2 hour sleep before getting ready for work. That was the first step of me de-stressing myself (albeit just a bit).

(2) And I managed to improve on my slides for my presentation at the office and print out all handouts for my session. Felt better when I looked through the finished work. More de-stressing factor for me :)

(3) I delivered my presentation at 11:30a.m, and received some very positive feedbacks and suggestions. An Aussie Professor who also presented his paper during the same session had proposed that I expand my paper and write a book on the topic! And he said he would be more than happy to provide me with all the old maps which I might need for the book (he's a professor of maritime cartography, by the way). Now, THAT was a MAJOR de-stressing factor for sure :)

(4) We had our Faculty meeting at 3:00p.m. Thank God it did not drag on like it usually did, and this time around there was no intra-departmental bashing of this ONE particular Department at our faculty meeting. So, it was not as stressful as I thought it would be. I just so hate it when departmental issues are brought up at faculty level. Your mess, you clean it up yourself la, kawan... And please, la... keep your politics confined to the department. Buleh?

Anyway, that didn't happen that Friday - so, another de-stressing factor for me :)

(5) My MIL had a makan-makan session at her place for her staff on Friday night, so all of us had our dinner there. No worries for me - no need to think about what to cook for dinner and all. Bliss...(thus de-stressing myself further :)

(6) However, in the middle of dinner, I received a phonecall from my Mommy, informing that my eldest brother had been admitted to the ICU at Si*e D*rb* Health Centre. Ayah and I went to fetch my Mommy and Abah at KD and straight to the hospital. Apparently, my Abang I** had a stroke (bleeding of his brain-stem) while conducting a meeting at work, and the cause of it was his BP. He went in with a BP reading of 240/100+! (Hmmm...obviously HIS stress level was more than mine!)

But, Syukur alhamdulillah, he was alert and conscious, and did not have any weaknesses on any parts of his body. His grip was firm that night, and no slurs as such. He was only complaining of severe headache and numbness on his left side. As I'm writing this, he is now at the normal ward, and the doctors are trying to get his BP down, and he's been given 6 weeks to rest. (But, knowing him, he would be back at work next week for sure...Sigh...)

Anyway, of course this piece of news had brought my stress level up a few notches, and I need to de-stress myself more after that.

SATURDAY 25/10/08

(7) Saturday morning - stress level went up a bit as it was my Supersupir Day, and I had to send and fetch the kids to and from a few of their classes.

(8) Stress level went down in the afternoon when we attended the Badan Anak Negeri Sembilan Raya Do at KG*A. I'm no anak Negeri, but I'm a member by virtue of being married to one and because my MIL is orang kuat persatuan. So, no choice. Hehehe! Anyway, good food can never go wrong. So, the raya do really helped the de-stressing process a lot :)

(9) We spent the rest of Saturday afternoon at Mak's as she was flying off to Ho Chi Minh City on Sunday. Right after maghrib, Ayah and I decided to bring the kids to One-U for dinner. The last time we went to One-U was just before Raya. We had dinner at Fi*h & Co., and after that, we didn't know what happened (probably there was something in our dinner?!), the kids managed to persuade Ayah and I to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 at GSC! As we had nothing planned, and it had been a while since we went out on a proper outing with the kids, Ayah and I surrendered. We also had to drag Dar along.

I hate to admit it, but, I actually ENJOYED HSM3! The choreography was just superb, and the songs were very catchy. But, of course, like the previous HSMs there were so many lame scenes. Even Hanna and Hasya could not help themselves from giggling and laughing out loud during those lame scenes. But, overall - if you need a major de-stressing treatment (like I did), watching HSM3 should do the trick :). Go watch it with your kids!

SUNDAY 26/10/08

(10) Sunday morning, went to Te*co for grocery shopping. Was there from 11:40a.m until 2:15p.m! Punya la banyak manusia!!! Stress level - CONFIRMED shot up. But, I managed to get everything to fill in my fridge and pantry. And there's no better way to de-stress myself than by looking at my fridge/freezer and pantry full to the brim later when I got home (and DAR kemas everything while I surf the net. Kalau I yang KEMAS, blood pressure sure go upstairs... Hahaha!)

I just love it when I open the fridge and freezer and the pantry, and I see that I have everything in there, just in case I suddenly feel like cooking something special. It doesn't matter if I didn't. Yang penting - the ingredients are there. Just in case. A good feeling - that one :)

(11) at 4:15p.m, got a phonecall from Ab*d (one of my MT friends) -

Ab*d : Are you there yet?

Me : There? Where?

Ab*d : Aw*n's House-warming and Open House?

Me : Errr... When did she move to a new house? And errr...I didn't get the invitation pun!

Ab*d : It was in the group e-mail lah!

Me : Ye ke? Alamak. Sorry lah - I've not checked my e-mails for 2 months laaa. Okay, never mind, I'll check it now, and I'll see you at Aw*n's house in an hour.

True enough, the invitation to Aw*n's new home was in one of the 2580 un-opened mails in my Inbox!

Another MAJOR de-stressing session at Aw*n's house that afternoon - with good food and good company in the form of other MTs and their spouses. After Isya', we later adjourned and convened at Ab*d's house in Vi**a Dsara, and lepak till about 11:00p.m.

MONDAY 27/10/08

(12) We left the house just after 9:00a.m and headed straight to the MPH Warehouse Sale at Section 13 PJ. We thought we were early, but there were already throngs of people there. Everybody managed to get books for themselves. Not bad at all - we got 38 books all in all, for about RM600!! That was definitely another major de-stressing point for me - hilang all my guilty feelings that I had with Hanna (especially when she got 18 books for herself!). And of course, it was also a very de-stressing moment when we paid for the books (especially for Ayah) because we thought they would cost us more than RM1,500! Happy, happy, happy!

(13) What better way to further de-stress myself than tucking in in some good food for lunch with the family. We went to Co*y Co*ne* at Jaya 33 and everybody had their favourites. Their sharks fin soup was so yummy...

(14) We then went to jenguk our BJ house (which we had not jenguked for more than 2 months!). Suffice to say, it's time for another call to Badhal Khan. And we also found out that the roof was leaking in a few places and there were water marks in some areas of the house. Stress level naik balik... But, I'm just going to tell myself that IT IS NOT A MAJOR PROBLEM. I'm not going to stress myself out over this. I'm not going to worry. I'm just going to be happy :)

All in all, the de-stressing process over the long Deepavali weekend has really helped. And I'm ready to face it all, insya Allah.

And I guess, what I could gather over the last few days ni - there'll be stressful moments everyday BUT, some things might just creep up while we least expect them, and make us feel better. And we have to always prepare ourselves for other unexpected things which might spoil our day again. The trick is to wait for the positive things to happen, or it they don't, we take things positively. Or we make them happen.

And however stressful we feel our lives are, there are others who lead an even more stressful lives than we do. So, we have to bersyukur with whatever it is that is thrown to us.

Cheers, you all :)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Stressed out...

Today - It feels like everybody takes it for granted that I could attend a last minute meeting that lasted for 5 damn hours.

Today - I realize that more often than not people think that what I have to do is not as important as what they have to do.

Today - I realize that people think that I have all the time in the world to do things for them.

Today - I realize that I always take it for granted that everything will always go according to plan. But, obviously it doesn't.

I was supposed to focus on a certain piece of work from 11:00a.m until 6:00p.m today.

But, this morning poor Hilman woke up with a terrible cough. Apparently he has croup and he has been coughing incessantly since morning.

I had to leave him at Mak's for a while as I had to attend a meeting at 9:00a.m.

Went back at 10:30a.m to fetch and bring Hilman to see Dr. Mu*a at 11:15a.m. and we only got all the prescribed medicines and only left the hospital at 1:00p.m.

Went back to the office at 1:15, only to be told that there was a last minute urgent meeting that I had to attend.

The meeting lasted for 5 hours. FIVE DAMN HOURS!

Went back - exhausted.

Had to send Hanna to Tuition at 7:45p.m.

Poor Hanna. I was so stressed out that I snapped at her when she asked me if she could go to the MPH Warehouse Sale.

I gave her a curt, "NO!"

And she asked, "Why?"

Another curt reply from me - "Who's going to bring you there?"

She replied - "You?"

And yet another curt reply of "I don't have time", from me.

And I felt so, so bad after that :(

Tonight - I will not be sleeping as I need to finish whatever it is that I was supposed to finish this afternoon.

Tonight - I need a lot of luck. And a LOT of coffee...

And tomorrow, I will make it up to her...

But, you know what? Whatever it is that I've written here - things are not going to change. People will still take me for granted... And I will still have a lot of "stressed out" days ahead of me to deal with.