Thursday, May 24, 2007

It is their hair that I smell...

It’s strange when I think about this –
But, I have been asked by my friends, oh so many times,
“You must be missing your children so much…”

To which I would reply –
“Yes….”

And silently I would say to myself –
“Yes…I miss the smell of their hair…"

Because…

It is their hair that I smell
When they kiss my hands and I lean over to hug them…

It is their hair that I smell
When I lie down beside them,
When I twirl their hair,
When I kiss them goodnight
Every night…

It is their hair that I smell
When they wake up in the morning
And when I have to carry my sleepy-eyed babies into the shower…

It is their hair that I smell
When I help them get into their tops
When their heads struggle to get through those tight collars…

It is their hair that I smell
When I bend down beside them to help them tie their shoe-laces…

It is their hair that I smell
When they hurt themselves
And I give them a hug
When I try to comfort them…

It is their hair that I smell
Every time we say goodbye
When I hug, kiss, and finally let go of them…

The last thing that I would remember of every parting moment –
Would be the smell of their hair…

And because of that –
It is their hair that I smell…
in my dreams…

28 comments:

Ayah said...

I fully understand what u mean, dear. Well, at least with Hilman anyway (as your 2 daughters absolutely refused to sleep with their Ayah!). Miss that smell whenever I´m away. Hmmm...I guess it´s a different smell that I look forward to now then..in a couple of days!!! ;p

Ayah

WANSHANA said...

Dear Ayah,

I was deliberating whether to publish your comment or not : macam ada ciri-ciri yang perlu ditapis...HAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway, I'll take it at face value - no insinuations whatsoever. HAHAHAHAHA!

So, tomorrow I have to go to the spa and have the Turkish bath, followed by my manicure and pedicure appointment, go to the hair salon - do the whole works, so that I'll smell really nice... HAHAHAHAHA!

Winks*

P/S : Can tell that I'm in a VERY happy mood, eh?

Ayah said...

Can´t believe I wrote that. Even worse..can´t believe you published that!!! Lol...

Kata Tak Nak said...

Wanshane, thank you so much for for your condolences and words of comfort. I trully appreciate it. Thank you

Ayah said...

Hola senorita..

Checking out shortly. Counting the hours...and minutes! ;p

Ayah

WANSHANA said...

Dear Kata Tak Nak,

Not at all...

My prayers are with you and Arwah's family.

Take care.

WANSHANA said...

Hola Senor.

Errr...do you need me to bring a banner of some sort with "AYAH" written on it? It has been a while - may be you have forgotten how I look like?! Hehehe...

I'm counting the seconds -

32 400...32 399...32 398...32 397...

MAMAMIA said...

Wanshana, my comment earlier tak keluarlah. Is there gonna be a family reunion? Kalau betul, I'm happy for you.

If I were to be away fr my kids, I think I'd miss their bau bucuk, bucuk masam. Belum ada ke org invent that bottle yg kita boleh store bau2an ni?

WANSHANA said...

Dear Mamamia,

Yes - tapi "separa" family reunion coz' only Ayah is arriving today for a short visit. But, no fret - I'm going back to Malaysia in 2 weeks time, Insya Allah!

Can't wait to smell my kids' hair again...I know they can be VERY masam, and all - but that's the best smell to us mothers, kan?!

Their smell bottled?! Hmmmm... cannot beat the original 'straight from their pores' perfume... ;D

Take care.

Ayah said...

Hi there, dear..

Thank God for the internet...I'm able to be connected to you, otherwise boring sakan. Considering my flight won't be for another 2 1/2 hours yet, I have plenty of time to waste, even minus the time to queue for passport control and buy cheese for your flatmates.

Btw, am really missing da kidz :( Can't imagine how bad it has been for you...

Counting the seconds... :)

Ayah

NURAINA A SAMAD said...

shana,
this is just so sweet and touching.
i know just what you mean and feel and ooh.... all that-lah.
that's shana dreaming aloud as a mommy....

what you wrote has brought back memories of Kak Ton when she left her only child then, Jasmine, to further her studies in the US..ya-lah terpaksa tinggalkan suami dan anak yang tersayang, demi menimba dan mncapai ilmu.

My heart goes out to you this moment, shana....
take care....
i shall now go smell my kids' hair and i don't care if they think i am crazy.

kak ton said...

Dear wanshana

I guess we wont be "seeing" you at the chat room for a couple of days. :)

I know you gonna be busy with ayah.

Have fun, dear.

WANSHANA said...

Dear K.Ena,

Thank you for your warm thoughts...

Yes, it has been pretty hard being away from the kids, but I am blessed to have Ayah and the rest of his family and mine back home to take care and tengok-tengokkan the kids while I'm here.

The fact that it is pretty cheap to call Malaysia from Newcasatle has made it possible for me to speak to the kids once or twice (sometimes more!)everyday, and somehow they don't really feel that I'm thousands of miles away. In a way, I'm glad that they are not missing me that much, and that they could go through their daily routines normally and not too affected by my absence.

Just the other day, I called to speak to them, and I was told off by Hilman, who said, "Mommy, why are you disturbing me? I'm doing my homework, you know?!" And another telling off from Hasya - "Mommy, can you be quick, please...I'm watching Bratz DVD!" HAHAHAHA!

So, K.Ena... even though I'm missing the smell of THEIR hair, in a way I'm glad that they are not missing the smell of MY hair that much...

Hope you managed to keep Adel and Shaira still while you get a whiff of the smell of their hair! ;D

Take care.

WANSHANA said...

Dear K.Ton,

Thanks! Hehehe...

But, as you can see, I can still jenguk my blog during my 'hibernation' period... Papa Bear tengah qadha' all the sleep he had missed while he was in Malaysia, AND stocking up on all of the sleep that he will miss when he's back there nanti. HAHAHA!

And you know what else he's been busy doing - catching up with all of K.Ena's TWB postings! Hmmmm... When I'm back in Malaysia nanti, sure berebut PC ni... :D

I might get him to join our regular chat tomorrow, insya Allah (if he's NOT sleeping during my normal chat time that is!)

Take care, K.Ton.

MINAH CELOTEH said...

I think by the time you got this comment, both of you and your dear significant other is smelling 'hares' or izzit suppose to be 'hairs'...hehehe

Keanorlinsya said...

Aunty Shana, please be reminde im still under 18. Havent had my 18th bday lagi. Nanti takut x-rated pulak kat sini. Hehehe

Btw, lama x nampak kat chatroom. Hahahahahah

Ibu said...

Weyyyy..... Got Turkish Bath overthere, meh? Even I missed it in Istanbul.

Salam to Haizal from both ibu & saba.

All d way fr Bahrain (la pulak.. transit jer!)

p/s Errr... sikat rambut cantik2 ek? HAHAHAhA!!!!

WANSHANA said...

Minah Celoteh,

"Hares"(?) or "hairs"(?) - makes no difference - Ayah has sinus problem! HAHAHAHA!

I'm just hopping happy that he's here! ;)


Kea,

Hmmmm...What were you thinking of when you read this entry, dear?! (Please don't answer this question! Hahahaha!)

By the way, aunty jenguk-jenguk jugak the chatroom a few times, but no other guests online maaa...Insya Allah esok lusa I will jenguk again.

Take care, dear!


Ibu,

Hmmmm...enough time for "Bahrain Bath" then? ;D

"Sikat rambut cantik-cantik?!!!" Sudah semestinya - I use L'Oreal Shampoo and Conditioner and Hair Colour lagi..."Because I'm Worth It". Hahahaha!

Ayah also kirim salam to you and Saba. He'll be calling you when he's in KL nanti...(Nope, not to arrange for Red Box session... Hahaha!)

Take care, Ibu.

Keanorlinsya said...

Not the post la aunty shana. The comments! Senang terpesong. Hehehe
And xde kat chatroom tu, ehemmmm mentang2 ayah di sana. Terus busy.

Theta said...

I concur!
Smell of your children's hair will make you feel grounded.
At toddlerhood, apart from the hair, I like to smell her neck and tickle her tummy....Talk about physical therapy! ;-)

Have a good day with your loved one, Wan Shana...

Ayah said...

Hi dear...

At Schiphol...waiting for flight back home in less than 2 hours. It was a wonderful 5-6 days. Thx a mill. Hope u can get all ur stuff sorted out well..work, belongings and all. Can't wait for u to be home..then u can smell their hair till ur heart content!

Ayah

WANSHANA said...

Kea,

I was in a dilemma whether to publish some of the comments - but thought, well...just for the fun of it - why not? Hahaha!

Yes, have been pretty busy and will be busier in the next one week or so. So, harapan yang agak tipis to see me in the chatroom. Insya Allah, will join the regulars again once Aunty dah settled everything in KL nanti, okay?

Take care, dear! :D

WANSHANA said...

Dear Theta,

Thank you for visiting again and for the good wish.

Yes!!! The neck - such sweet baby smell...I also love the smell of babies' palms and fingers - heavenly...

Take care - and please kiss Baby Sadia's hair and neck and palms and fingers for me! ;D

WANSHANA said...

Dear Ayah,

Yes, most wonderful 5-6 days.

Thank you so much for packing my stuff, etc. I don't know how I would have been able to do all the packing, etc and at the same time have to tie all the loose ends in my work, had you not come to help! You're a gem, my dear...

Not long to go and I will be back with you and the kids! YIPPEEEE!!! Hmmmm...make sure they DON'T wash their hair before fetching me at KLIA, okay? I want to smell their sweaty hair!!! HAHAHA!

Take care, dear.

Ibu said...

Ahhhh.... we'll make that booking way in advance this time. 2 more mics pls.... ehehehehhhh

psssttt.... there's a new restaurant just downstairs. nice one. if only we reach before 9.30pm!

WANSHANA said...

Dear Ibu,

Make sure book VVIP Room, okay? One extra mic enough - I will leave it to Haizal to embarrass himself. HAHAHAHA!

Errr...have to be at the restaurant by 9.30pm?! No problem- we just make arrangements for all Ahli Majlis Tertinggi to meet at the joint at 7.30pm - untung-untung everybody will reach there at 9.29pm...Huahuahua...

Take care, dear.

Hanna said...

Mommy!

Umm Ayah is BLURRRRR. I told him ''What should I write? I'm not good at posting comments for poems'' And do u know what your husband said? ''Huh? What poem? Mommy didn't write a poem! Wait.. I think she did. Oh YES! THAT poem. Yes. She did'' Oh,

GOD.

Apa la. Well the poem's real touching, eh? HAIR HAIR HAIR!! Ayah said u told us not to wash our hair? Well he pretended to take a spray n SPRAY our hair (?) Haih. Well I think I better go now. Its already 11.18 pm and Wan is still waiting for us.

PS : Thanks again for the prezzies!

LOVE . HUGS . KISSES
Hanna Suhaila binti Haizal bin Haron Kamar.

WANSHANA said...

Errrrr...Hanna, dear - PLEASE wash your hair NOW (and tell that to your adek-adek, too!)

I only need you guys to just keep Saturday's sweat for Mommy, okay?! ;D If not, nanti you'll have to dial 911 for the ambulance when I faint at the airport...